College is weird…
There’s honestly no other way to say it, college is really weird. It’s a wonderful weird, but still weird nonetheless. I left home for school, and I went pretty far away. I’m about 600 miles from everything I ever called home and it’s been an experience so far. People always talk about how going away to college means you’re going to be on your own, and frankly that’s absolute crap. There hasn’t been a second here when I’ve felt alone. There’s constantly people around, whether it be friends, faculty, or just other students and contrary to popular belief, many of them are friendly and will help someone in need. The only thing I do understand when people say “you’re on your own” is the fact that parents/guardians aren’t around to help anymore. Yes, we have to do our own dishes, laundry, shopping, but honestly it’s fine! I really enjoy the independence and I actually enjoy preforming those domestic tasks. It makes me feel like I’ve got my life together.
I’m nearing the end of my quarter so I’ll be returning home soon, and honestly I’m not too sure how I feel about that. It’s not that I’m not looking forward to going home, it’s just strange because I feel like I’ve had a little taste of freedom and excitement and soon everything will be back to the way it was. I’ve realized how much I’ve changed since I left and the idea of returning home, basically a completely different person, is kind of daunting to me. I’m very happy with who I’ve become since I left, and I really hope that I manage to keep up the positive changes I’ve made throughout the past two months. The last thing I want to have happen is to slip back into my old way of living life. In the times leading up to leaving, I was so unhappy and I think the events that transpired tainted my view of home and the community that I felt stuck in.
Since I’ve been away, I’ve noticed such a difference in my outlook on life as well as the way that I try to live my life. I’ve laughed a little louder, run a little faster and danced a little harder. I’ve been doing more and more to push myself out of my comfort zone and to explore new things and honestly, it’s been incredibly beneficial. I feel better about who I am as a person as well as where my future may be going. May there be good times ahead.